quite different

hello pals! so long time no see
wish that you guys still accept me to write on this so ordinary blog.
what I want to share rite now is not such an important stuff. I just want to share some grouches. crappppppppp. I hate this situation so bad, where homeworks, exams, and problems are becoming friends. they come together and make our life (especially for students) so damn complicated. really need holiday!!! the real holiday where I can freely breathe!
its 11th grade and I think its getting worse. moreeeeeee worse than a year ago.
God, I really feel quite different situations than a year ago. its October !!! a year ago I was in a really good condition but now I feel there's something like.... missing.. or... something else ? um I don't know surely but Im just feeling badly not good. it feels like I'm forced to run in the wrong way. but I have to. even I don't want to. and beside that, I don't have someone to share my problems with. I hate this situation!!!! really do ! but what can I do ? hm just praying and waiting (and keep trying?)
God, I know seriously that You must be know what I'm thinking now. You know me than I do. so please give me power to solve those problems, please God, I trust and love You!